i love lamp
Never in my life have I experienced so much satisfaction. I feel as though every aspect of my life is good and getting better. I'm starting a new quarter in the place that I love with people that I love, studying things that I love and just trying to abide in this Love that I'm learning more about day by day.
I love people a lot - I would say too much but I don't personally think that that is possible haha. I get really fond of people for very simple reasons and I consider a lot of people my best friends. I used to be really weird with that - I didn't want to ever seem needy or that I valued a friendship too much or more than the other person did (I am very aware of how messed up that sounds so don't worry about pointing that out, my dear reader). It comes from having two really strong 12 year friendships that *poof* one day were 2,500 miles away and impossible to keep up, as well as not having any really close friends (the kind you really live life with and share those deep recesses of your soul with) for a long time after. It also comes from me being inherently selfish in friendships. I didn't like letting people get deep with me because growing up there were a few times where that backfired. I also just didn't know what getting deep was like. I thought it was sharing secrets, learning things about someone that few people knew: it meant late night sleepovers or big dramatic crying sessions or something. And I was never one for staying up that late at sleepovers.
Right now, I consider myself to have possibly the best friends ever. And I also consider myself to have a lot of "best" friends. As I am writing this, probably ten people come to mind - there are some I am closer to than others, but none of them really have the title of The Best. And that's the way I like it. For the first time in my life, I really enjoy getting real deep, real quick [Holly, that's for you]. I also really enjoy letting the people I love know how much I really do love them and appreciate them. Even a simple, "I'm really glad to see you today," means so much.
And it's contagious.
Love,
always always always,
Meredith
I love people a lot - I would say too much but I don't personally think that that is possible haha. I get really fond of people for very simple reasons and I consider a lot of people my best friends. I used to be really weird with that - I didn't want to ever seem needy or that I valued a friendship too much or more than the other person did (I am very aware of how messed up that sounds so don't worry about pointing that out, my dear reader). It comes from having two really strong 12 year friendships that *poof* one day were 2,500 miles away and impossible to keep up, as well as not having any really close friends (the kind you really live life with and share those deep recesses of your soul with) for a long time after. It also comes from me being inherently selfish in friendships. I didn't like letting people get deep with me because growing up there were a few times where that backfired. I also just didn't know what getting deep was like. I thought it was sharing secrets, learning things about someone that few people knew: it meant late night sleepovers or big dramatic crying sessions or something. And I was never one for staying up that late at sleepovers.
Right now, I consider myself to have possibly the best friends ever. And I also consider myself to have a lot of "best" friends. As I am writing this, probably ten people come to mind - there are some I am closer to than others, but none of them really have the title of The Best. And that's the way I like it. For the first time in my life, I really enjoy getting real deep, real quick [Holly, that's for you]. I also really enjoy letting the people I love know how much I really do love them and appreciate them. Even a simple, "I'm really glad to see you today," means so much.
And it's contagious.
Love,
always always always,
Meredith
Meredith, you are one of my best friends! :)
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Definitely know what it's like to not want to say I have a lot of best friends...I still feel weird about it because when I think "best", I think a few...and that makes it hard to know who my best friends are. I would like to get deep with people, but I need to learn how to do that outside of one-on-one discussions...
I remember when I said, "I love lamp" at the beginning of the quarter and I didn't know why. It makes sense now and that was really great timing. Hm. Well, to keep it real and simple, I like this a lot. I could go on, but that would be a loaded task.
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