horoscopes

I'm not usually one for horoscopes.

I've been enjoying reading mine lately because even though I don't really believe in those types of things, it gives me things to think about and meditate on before God. I recently downloaded the app "Co--star" which gives you detailed chart information every day while also giving you compatibility information with people you're connected to (hilarious, I know). My issue with horoscopes lies mainly in the pseudoscience of it and the ability of most people to self-confirm what they believe about themselves. Most horoscopes serve to please the reader or to be so vague that anything could possibly apply. Today's was interesting to me and I found some things to ponder, here's a few tidbits:

• desire creating limits
• identity challenging responsibility
• realism causing disempowerment and challenging emotional stability
• realism affecting self esteem and facilitating growth
• illusion creating limits

It gives, based on the position of sun/moon, etc. how long each of these phenomena will last. The last one, illusion creating limits, was most interesting to me. The timeline is "through 2018", which, if I'm honest, makes a bit of sense. 2018 has been an absolutely shit year for me in every respect. On top of all the change I have already encountered, I am about to finish my graduate program, I have finally ended a relationship that's been on hold for about six months, am starting a new job, and am possibly moving to a new city to be closer to said job. There's a lot of trust there: trust in God that he has something for me, trust in other people that I am currently relying on, trust in myself that I can actually do this... My inclination is always to look all around me for inspiration, ideas on how to move forward, and for as much information as possible to be better able to move into the future. I see where this may play into illusion. 

In graduate school, we talk a lot about being in a bubble that is isolated from the world. I do not think bubbles are necessarily a bad thing as they enable and empower one to diligently do one's work on how to be outside in the world in a "safer" and trusting space with opportunities for feedback and critique. I have many bubbles that I operate in and out of especially because I move constantly through different communities and with many different kinds of people. I think that because I am constantly shifting in and out of certain places and spaces, I have to adapt in that moment and it causes me to have to ignore certain things. If I took in everything at every moment, I would be so overwhelmed. Because I am not looking at things with God's perspective, I see a skewed version of the world: an illusion. Taking time to truly look at things with an eternal perspective or through God's eyes - which requires prayer, patience, and reflection - is the only way for me to truly see the world for what it is and move through it in the way that the Lord wants me to. 

I have neglected this blog this summer for many reasons but I am back. Renewed vision, renewed vigor, renewed hope.

Love,

Always,

Meredith