endurance

I don't have any stamina yet for spiritual life. I am not accustomed to running the mile anymore.

"We rejoice in our suffering, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God's love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us."

I have been through a lot of suffering in the past few months and have visibly seen the "no's" in my life. Now instead of letting those happen to me, I need to learn to listen to God and enact those "no's." Sometimes I don't hear or listen to God's voice in a situation where he wants me to get out. I get caught up in my feelings or I feel like there's merit to be somewhere or in something that God is telling me to move on from. I need to LISTEN. Especially because even though God has said so many "yes's" to me, he's going to say no sometimes. And if I am truly in relationship with him, I need to be able to hear him when he does.